Ichi -
What would your Japanese name be? (female) brought to you by Quizilla
I just had to put this up...yea..... haha... Ichi?? Does that mean Ichi-ban?? k whatever...
You are blessed with
FAERY wings. Beauty,
laughter, life, magic...that's what you are all
about. You are refreshingly innocent and happy
with your life of purity and play. Life's a
game and it's a good one. In your eyes there's
no way to lose! You can be very mischeivous and
have been known to cause trouble, but it's all
in the name of fun and not meant to really harm
anyone. You like to play tricks on people who
aren't quite as bright or clever as you - which
is almost everyone. Nature is the setting you
prefer to be in - Always. Barefoot and wild you
can't be tamed. You're probably a restless
spirit who loves to travel, and quite a
dreamer. Your creativity is astounding and your
art (of whatever media - from writing to
painting to drama) is like something from
another world - ethereal and often very
fantasy-oriented. You can either be a social
butterfly or a loner with their head in the
clouds - but rarely inbetween. You stubbornly
refuse to accept responsibility or to give in
to the wishes of others - unless you feel like
it. You have a strong passion for music and
can't imagine life without it. You'll grow up
someday, but you'll always be a child at heart.
You are adventurous and love to take risks, and
feel a deep connection with the weather,
plants, and animals. You prefer sunshine to
thunder or snow, the warmth of summer to
autumn's chill, and quiet forests to suburban
backyards. Magic through and through, you are
far more powerful than you seem, and are
capable of being extremely passionate. Though
you can be childish, naive, stubborn, and
self-absorbed, one thing is certain - life with
you will never be boring!
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Haha.... I *don't* play tricks on people....... I think.
You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted, care-
free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You have
friends and most absolutely love you. You can
be calm and soothing one minute and ragging in
anger the next so no one wants to get on your
bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.
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Oh thank you thank you very much... *claps*
Congratulations! You're a black velvet!
What Drink Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
Looks tasty..... though i've got no idea what it is o.O.....
Okay, so Chem was scary today, especially when Ferng went mad again, at the end of the lesson. She was so pissed with us for not doing the titration crap good enough.
Hahaha..... Thurai said 141 'erms' and 249 'okays' today in just 2 periods..... actually I expected more.... and she said her 'okays' so softly I had to read her lips, man.... so farnie can..... we can actually construct a frequency curve for all those erms. Haha.... the gradient would be increasing all the time.... opps gtg watch american idol.....
You know.... today's Lit lesson really rocked, compared to any other stuff we've had since the beginning of the year. Mrs Tan brought us to this park outside school for 'characterisation' lesson. First of all, it was cool because I can't remember any teacher bringing us out of *school* for a lesson.... hehe.... Literature breaks all the rulez ^__^;; where the inarticulate are able to speak and all that stuff....
Haha.... we had to sit on the park floor while listening to Mrs Tan rant about nature and how we must all soak it in.... so farnie man.... but it was so nice until -- PAK!!! Hahahaha.... bird crap landed on Jasmine's uniform!! Haha... she can go buy 4D liao...
Anywayz, we had to find a house and kinda do a character study on the person living there, judging only from the house's outer appearance. Okayz, so we actually wanted to get this really stylish (erm... *holy*) house, but another group found it first, so we took the one next to it instead and er..... what a bloody big contrast, man!!!! Next to that lovely, well-furnished, clean, organised home, was a rag-and-bone man's pad.... this huge looming tree was covering half the house from view, and faded chinese new year packets hung limply on its lower twigs. Then the inside was even worse.... cardboard crap and all other nonesence was just left on the veranda... if you would call that a veranda at all.
Hm... it was horrible anyway. But the best part was when the owner of the holy house came from nowhere and showed us his rabbit from Holland. So kawaii!!!!! It was so damn innocent-looking and furry, and it was like, really a privillege to see a Dutch rabbit.... haha.... he was so proud of his house.... hmph.... who wouldn't be lorh??
*sigh*..... Today's maths test was like, 'oh shit what the hell is this?'....... I was so beat yesterday till my eyes refused to open somehow. It was a terrible feeling.... it's practically like someone put lead weights on your eyelids and you had to strain so much to keep them open. I couldn't take it, so I just packed everything and just chill.... I mean, I couldn't study with that kind of mood lorh.... what to do??!! And I only touched 3 questions on properties of circles (all of which I gave up halfway)..... I was so depressed cos I couldn't find the mood to study, but I really did put in my best today. I'm counting everything on my construction of locus..... cos it's the only thing I can do....
*sobs*...... wah!! A writer has no passion whatsoever for the practicalities of life (such as maths), thus concludes my reasons for (going to) fail this test.....
I just thought of a really stupid incident that happened just last week which I'm not gonna disclose to some outsider.... only a few know.... it left me thinking so much, and I HATE it, because I've never thought so much over such an issue in my whole life. I was so pissed.... more sad than pissed, actually. Well duh.... what kind of idiot would just sit there and blink expressionlessly when something like *that* happens to you?
I dunno.... it's been like that for the whole of last week. From Monday.... and on Friday.... It. Just. Broke. And it's almost like I can feel *that something* snap in me, and it can never ever be mended. I hate it so bloody much. I freaking HATE it. It's so hard to explain this.... but I don't think it's really that..... I DO know how to say it, it's just that I don't want to. Hell, it's my *trait* not to.... maybe it's not good to keep everything bottled up anymore... cos that bottle just broke, and I heard it break so clearly that day.
All that trust, that precious *precious* trust is SO gone. Okay... maybe not exactly trust.... just.... there's no other word....
I want to fall down. I just want to sit and slam all this shit on the floor. But foremost, I just want to write.... cos it takes all these STUPID feelings away. It's like a cut from reality to take all the pain away. No one else seems to care much.... but that one thing that meant so much to me really meant *that* much. It doesn't matter so much anymore, because it's been trampled on, and I can discard it as easily, though the pain still lingers. I usually ignore that pain. I've got better things to rant about. What's the use of reliving it when it only brings more hurt? So I just throw it away.
Yes, deal with it.... I'm a sadist and a fool. An utter fool. And I've got no time to waste on thinking about stupid things when they'll just pass and be forgotten.
Things will never be the same, but I've got absolutely nothing to give anyone except my loyalty.
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary;
When troubles come and my heart burdened be;
Then, I am still and wait here in the silence,
Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
There is no life - no life without its hunger;
Each restless heart beats so imperfectly;
But when you come and I am filled with wonder,
Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains;
You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas;
I am strong, when I am on your shoulders;
You raise me up: To more than I can be.
I hate Elizabeth. I hate Walter. Why did they marry...? WHY......??? WHY???!!! To D.H. Lawrence: you're a good writer dude.... but why.... why did you have to write about stinking chrysanthemums????!!!!
Feeling exceptionally arty these few days.... just realised how little I've been drawing lately.... it's so damn sad. After the O Levels, I'll just sit and draw and write all day. Of course, taking food from the fridge during intervals. I've got (surprisingly) a lot of inspiration in school, be it writing or drawing. I miss drawing mangas T__T.... once the exams are ALL over, I'll *commit* myself to read that damn thick Photoshop manual so that I can paint pics on the com. I've got so many uncoloured pics, just waiting to be taken and finished.
There's like..... a thousand and one images in my head everyday, screaming to be drawn and painted in Photoshop.... *sobs*..... they're =screaming= at me....
There're over a million words in my head everyday, and it's driving me NUTS. Words that want to be penned down.... words that want to express something I'm not too sure of..... damn weird feeling man.... it's an overload, and I'm so SICK of waiting here for them to organise themselves....
Nowsadays ah, I find myself envying the weirdest of people. You know.... I envy that artistic genius Vincent van Gough, which is really really weird o.O........ and funniest of all, I envy D.H. Lawrence....hahaha....... he's 'one of the greatest literary stylists of the 20th century'..... and I envy John Grisham, and Catherine Lim, and Anthony Doerr, and JRR Tolkien. It's freaky. But I don't envy JK Rowling that much.... I *admire* her. Harry Potter's growing too old for me..... but that won't stop me from catching the 3rd movie (I only wanna see Sirius and Lupin duh).
.....If I seriously have to set a lifetime goal for myself, it would have to be.... being level with these people.... which I think is utterly stupid and farfetched. And since I'm not entirely sane and completely caught up in dreams, I'll try, because that's about one of the very few things I have the determination to do.
"And my aim in life is to make picture and drawings, as many and as well as I can; then, at the end of my life, I hope to pass away, looking back with love and tender regret, and thinking, 'Oh, the pictures I might have made!'"
--Vincent van Gough, 19 Nov 1883.
Yesh... it's over 1am, but I just finished watching MTV asia awards!!!!!!!! Couldn't miss it for the world..... I dun care... I'm going next year!! Anywayz, yea yea Blue won fav pop act *again*, Linkin Park won fav Rock act *again* and Mark & Mr Han looked like, 'sigh.... won again.... nice effort people...' kind of attitude. But I still wuv them!!! The winners were like... kinda unexpected. I thought Beyonce would win fav female, but it was.......... Christina!!!!! Yay! Hah... Justin should be in that category.... he didn't come to the awards, as usual... must be damn embarrassed to get out of his hole after what he'd done.... hehehee....
BLACK EYED PEAS RAWWWKKK!!!!!!! They sang *three* songs.... Shut Up, Where is da luv and Hey Mama.... *whimper* wished I was there..... I hope they'll still come next year.... but this year they're really big, and by next year I think they'll be as low as.... Britney. Yupz... that's the music industry. *sobs*....
Heh.... Gareth Gates was absolutely gorgeous man!!!! Vaness Wu was *surprisingly* hot hot HOT.... and I've got nothing much to say about Michelle Branch cos I'm too sian of her.... Hah, Duncan so extra wearing white in the middle of his fellow black peeps....
Oh goodness.... got tons of homework.... piling over me and toppling down the table. Ya know.... my study room was awarded the Messiest Place on Earth Award since last week!! And it's the defending champion since last year!!! Yayz... now it's loaded with sweet wrappers and chocolate wrappings.... ribbons and letters and a miniature bear.... hugs keychain and a certain blue cup.... a cork with my name on it.... a messy chunk of blue paper filled to the brim with sweets.... and *gasp* -__- more sweets in Desiree's purple pouch..... and the tatty bear is smack in the middle with it's 'Jiaying' heart ^__^..... plus papers of unusual shapes from my given gifts.... *sigh* It has been a busy Valentine.
Damn... got so many tests next week X__X Let's get retarded man....
Went to St. Luke's today. Go perform for the elderly there..... at first I thought, oh shit man, they look bored out of their minds. But later it was all kinda alright.... KINDA. Had to run back to school and up four levels to the guzheng room to get damn guzhengs down... so last minute. -___-.... I'm really tired... running up and down and across slopes of trecherous sand and grass. All I wanna do is SLEEP.... but bloody tution.... wanna cancel today... im so beat, it's amazing i can still type.....
The areas beneath my wrists are like, raw red for some reason.... I might cancel tution anytime soon... I'm SOOO tired. Aiya.... dun feel like blogging now. Gotta go chill big time....
Hm....there's pretty much nothing to do, so... just a lame tidbit for you: Ferng wore black shoes and socks today. *snicker* When she was coming down the corridor, it was just the shoes I saw. Cos they were black. And she was wearing a black top and.... light brown skirt. The most awful match of the century. But that was just like her... so I didn't make such a fuss. She was at her climax of insanity today.... scolded Jodi and Sharmane forever.... and came to a conclusion that Jodi hates Chem. That ain't very nice picking on one particular student only.... it's degrading.
Anywayz, Chem sucked. As usual. I HATE titration. What's the bloody use of it?? I feel so stupid trying to stir the solution in the flask and squeezing this tiny ball in the tube that hardly works at all. It almost squeezed itself out when I was washing it.... bloody hell man...
The horoscope in 8 Days can just tear itself up. In the section for Libra it said that Wed and Thurs are supposed to be the best days this week for us.... bullshit. To make matters worse today, we had this Young Writers' Course or whatever shit they call it. I guess it COULD be good. I was actually really excited when I heard the name of the course, but when it meant *journalism*, I was DEADPAN. I'm never gonna work for the media.... they're just a bunch of crap.
WORST of all, we've got this China person teaching us.... and her voice can be compared to a mouse's.
Her first excuse for it: the plane passing by just now was the blame. Second excuse: maybe if you girls made an effort to listen to what I'm trying to said, it will help. What the....? But like, who cares anyway? I wasn't even listening. 99.9% of my attention was on the field where the Sports Heats were taking place..... haha... Lee will reign!!!!!!!! k wadeva....
Now, every inch of my study table is covered with things of every possible size and genre..... like pink sakura letter pads, v day presents, pink and white paper, foolscap, notebooks, more foolscap, coloured pens, strewn CDs, sec 3 books, curve ruler, more coloured pens, worksheets I don't bother filing, keychains (wherever *they* came from), mangas, magazines, handphone (I know it's here, but I think it's covered by walls of books), glue, compass, files...... it's really endless. It was worst on Sunday. It CANNOT got any worse than it did on Sunday. I had to take about ten seconds just to find a simple simple thing like a ruler, and files were all over THE FLOOR. Bags included, and v day presents too. At one point I couldn't even find the cordless mouse.
I wanna quit this. I really do. Die.... got Sports Heats tomorrow.... I'm already so exhausted, still want me to run 1500???? *faint* I'll just WALK.
And back to the reality that is my messy environment.... gotta go study.... spent too much time here.... and I've got no time to waste.
And when I thought Ferng would calm down by now, she came along today, mad as usual. She's nuts I tell ya!! NUTZ!!! Dunno why she loathes our class so much.... was it something we DID??!! Maybe the Chem moitresses weren't *efficient* enough??!!! Phff.... she's the problem. We're really behind, cos she likes to torture her students in various methods. She just *loves* to single out those people who never brings her stuff then filters them down again until there are only a few students left, and she can happily make them do her dirty work....
Okay, heck her. On to another thing.... last night was... stuffing. Went to this wedding dinner, and the groom/bride and I aren't even *indirectly* related kayzz!!! Dunno whose larh... like, my dad's seurity dunno-what boss's son/daughter I dun even know. -__-;; *sweatdrop* But the food was good, and culturally crazy. It's like, an Indian Chinese mix, cos the bride is Chinese and the groom is Indian. Haha.... the moment we all sat down at the table everyone was so 'Ooo' and 'Ahh' at the display of roses and fake doves in the centre of the table.
Hahaha.... all those crazy people each took one rose (me and my parents included).... I dunno, the first thing I thought when I saw those big roses was Muraki from Yami no Matsuei, cos he likes roses, and he's EVIL. Har har.... I find myself thinking of Muraki whenever I see them.... me thinks I'm watching too much anime. Yup.
Luckily that wedding dinner didn't have some kind of lame powerpoint where they show the couple smooching and preparing for the wedding. No one looks at it anyway. So boring. And I was like, thesecond youngest person there...all those people around me were either married or have bf/gf already..... I felt so...young. Haha.... so stupid. All those married people at the wedding are already so sick of being married, still can go to a wedding dinner.... it must remind them of times long forgotten and best forgotten.... haha...
Bought Saiyuki Reload 3 some time back, and it's like, my slowest time ever trying to finish it... what WRONG with me???!!! I usually finish one book in one day or three days at most, cos the Chinese is (hehe) simplified and the pics take up SO MUCH space.... whoa, this book is more pervertic than ever. Heh. So scary. But it's my fav book so far cos it sheds some light on a lot of things that has happened before. Plus, it's Sanzo-centric. ^___^
Hehe... I never knew he was almost raped when he was 13. ALMOST.... he killed those guys anyway. It was so disgusting lorh..... and poor Sanzo... he was so scared at first, then when he shot them, he was so freaked that he actually killed people. No wonder he's so ruthless....he's been killing people since he was 13...haha. O.o....it has suddenly dawned on me that my fav anime characters consists of guys who have been sexually harressed when they were young (i.e. Hisoka and Sanzo) ::gasp::.....
Is that a good thing...? ^__^;;
So.... it's NOT V day yet but Moulin Rouge is like, showing on Sunday, channel 5. Might as well advertise...haha. It's an excellent movie, I'll probably watch it again.... lemme see, this should be Shiyun's 16th time watching, no?? Nutterz. She can go write the whole script also.
Today Ferng was like....so mad. Okay, madder than usual, but still freakingly mad. She was so pissed that we couldn't answer some questions and her hair was flying all over the place when she stomped over to the board. She's a maniac. We've got a maniac for a Chemistry teacher. How nice. It's like, the MOE had no one else to take the post and just stole someone from a mental institute who knows what's mole concept. And speaking of mole concept.... *whimper*.... we got some major 'full throttle' from that Ferng.... literally. Shout shout shout, strangle strangle strangle, scream scream scream, nag nag nag....
I don't like Chem. I'm freaked out with the teacher. And the ironic thing is: I'm a Chem monitress. Lydia and I are her little doggies who have to run around the whole school either looking for her or doing some errand for her. I don't mind being the Physics monitress, cos Mr Low seems to do everything himself. All the other subject monitresses are like, slack compared to us. *We* need to carry QA books, collect practical papers at the last minute, arrange the shit according to register number, be responsible for anyone who never hands in work, be expected to do this and that....
*sigh*.... I'm beat. I better take a snooze, or I'll drop unconcious during tution.... Ja!
Bloody tests.....
Anywayz, The Last Samurai was awesome!! I wasn't really paying attention to a lot of parts, so I was so damn blur as to why Tom Cruise had to go to Japan. Man, he's like a drunkard or something there.... *gasp* the sakuras.... 0__0 They're lovely.... oh man, at the end when the last of the samurais died, those sakuras were flying in the wind like snow.... so nice. T__T We don't have those in s'pore...only fake ones you can stick up using scotch tape.
And their hair seems like their most prized possession.... I was so freaked out when those bastards cut Nobutada's hair. *sob* And he kept his dignity.... though he kinda screamed at them "Yamero!!!!"... I forgot how to spell that, but it means "STOP" anyway. He looked better with short hair, so don't cry, Nobutada!!...haha. Taka (Koyuki!!) was so nice to Nathan. Haha.... they got together in the end ANYWAY like all stories.
That Simon Graham was so funny... and bloody naive. Oh....and that green little emperor.... he's too friggin' young to be an emperor!!! So blur... so dependant... and what's with 'The Emperor's voice is too pure to be heard in this court!'. Bah!! Whoa, like they really honour a lot of stuff there.... rather die than surrender. That's GOOD attitude -__-;; Yup.
All in all, it was a GREAT movie man!!!!! Dammit.... the kimonos were all so nice.... the sakuras were so pwetty!! (out-of-character jiaying) And *GASP* the kantanas!!!!! I heard they can match swords if you know how to use them well. T__T I wanna learn how to use a kantana!! (me thinks it's what they're called...those stick swords) Erm... the blood was quite fake.... it was either too fake, or I've never seen people get stabbed before in reality. Maybe yeah.... there's A HELL LOT of blood pouring out. There's only a lot of blood pouring out if it's in a righteous fight, but when it comes to suicide for honour, there's hardly anything that flies out of that wound... It must be a movie thing.
Tom Cruise: ARGGH!! Little brats!! Never played baseball before issit??!!
Little brats: *giggle giggle*....*glomp!!*
