Went to my first violin class today.....oh my gosh, hah gotta learn how to hold the bow properly first. Must relax the hand and fingers, blah blah, like guzheng. Almost alike. The right hand must be curled into a circle-like thing...
The lesson only lasted 30 minutes...about the same time I took to reach there. It seemed so damn short I wish it was an hour or something. I don't believe it's enough time. Why do they always say, '30 mins is enough!' Yeah.
Tomorrow have piano lesson with my cousin. I think both are totally alike in terms of..um, difficuty. Man, I'm not a fast learner, and poly starts in like, march issit? Must cram all those things in my head..
Signed up for SPCA voluntery work, but I think I'm underaged. Ya see, must be 17-23 to do most stuff, and those without any experience with animals whatsoever stay in the office to do boring admin work. I think they might reject me....cos I signed up to work in the pound where all the fun is.....but have to be 23+.
So now, have to find something else to do....But SPCA is da best! Lurve animals....esp doggies and KITTENS!!!!!! So kawaii.. ahem, yeah, and besides it's not like it's SO far from home. 2 buses then I'm there....so perfect...but why?? WHY?? Why haven't they called back??
Hmph.....now I'm just contenting myself with drawing. Realised how impatient I've become....last time could draw a complete picture on a FULL A3 size paper. Now I don't even have the heart for a tiny little piece. What the HELL happens when people grow up??!!! Hm...drawing anime...now that I've got Animax and a whole lot of good anime, I guess I've got some inspiration.
Haha..but wait til you see them talk in ENGLISH! Sounds so gross....it sounds WAY better in its original language for some reason.. opps, I think I totally missed Wolf's Rain now.. *bangs head on monitor*
Dunno why, but nothing's going the way I want it to. Don't know, don't understand why no one can get it when I want something else. It's like having the whole world going against you suddenly, then you know everyone's just trying to get a kick out of their crummy lives.
Bloody hell....is something like violin too much to ask for? I don't even care if it screeches or something or if the downstairs neighbour files a complaint. 'cos I don't give a rat's ass. This is just great. Maybe some things are just signs that tell you to stop it and try doing something else. I freaking HATE those things. If I'm not meant for anything I aspire for, it's MY problem, NO ONE else's.
Nowadays, also not sure why everyone's so apart and trying to run away from each other. What happened to "Let's keep in touch"? Whatever. Do whatever. Also can't understand what kind of mother wouldn't give her own HOME number to her own kid. I guess some people are just born to be a pain in the ass.
Hn. Things just don't go the way I expect them to go. That's all.
I might as well go into a state of depression. No one will care anyway, so what the hell. I don't want any attention either, so...I guess that makes me a pretty messed up asshole.
It's the 4th day of the new year and i had the best x'mas ever! No presents or anything but china was bloody great. I dunno why everyone thinks there's nothing to see or believe that china's boring....maybe u just dunno where to go or wad..
Beijing is a MUST. Shanghai is just for people who like to shop shop shop. Nothing much...a little stale.
Oh my gosh, man....even though it was winter and I was freezing through my 6 layers of clothing, it was fun. In beijing the tour leader was like, damn knowledgable. He knew almost everything that happened in the last 5000 years in beijing....as though he lived in Qing dynasty and was reborn or something. The tour people were loads of fun...friendly and cool..yup.
Went to the Summer Palace on x'mas. Snow snow snow snow snow snow. The moment we got out it was like, terrible, cos it was the 1st day and everyone not used to it.
I thought that the summer palace was this small place with temples and pavilions. Dammit, it was as huge as a city and we only could visit less than half of it.
We went to a lotta places, and so i forgot most of them...the more boring ones like listening to this old doctor talking about chinese herbs and blah blah.
The Forbidden City was GASP!!!!!!!! We had to pass through so many gates, I was like, are we there yet are we there yet are we there yet... There are so many big gates...and the tiny ones for the servants to pass. Centre gate is for the emperor, side gates for the high ranking officers and royal family. Almighty us took the centre gate.
A lot of the stuff was under preservation and yea....so many million rooms. The furniture from the Qing, Ming, etc dynasties were still in their rooms, man!!!! Sugoi....
Haha....u know, we saw this weird sign on the construction site of the forbidden city. I think it said: The ancient building is renovating. Sorry for the inconvinience..or sth like that. I didn't know building could renovate themselves. I'd like to see that.
The chambers looked kinda small from the outside. All the old furniture crammed into there...dunno how those emperors move around when they're so damn fat. Then there were the concubines. The tour guide said that he had to pick one each night...like lucky draw liddat. Their names would be written on gold and put in this box. His favourite one will be in the corner so that he will know where to pick. Sick emperor.
Anyway the male servants (dunno how to spell eh...'yu-nuch' or wadeva)...I think their families sent them to the emperor so that they could have a better life...u know, their dicks were totally sliced off when they were five.....haha, yea u should know why...we learnt before. Then their urine will sprout out in all directions....so poor thing.
We visited the Ming tombs, where we walked through the gate that seperates Yin and Yang, Dead and Living respectively. Freaky. Then there was the Temple of Heaven. There were old instruments in this place that used to be played at the praying ceremony. Saw the oldest form of guzheng there. It was so long and broad..
I guess the nicest place was the Great Wall of China. Ok...so I never expected it to be so difficult to climb. Especially in the winter. The steps were so HIGH and STEEP, and when you come back down again it feels like you're falling. No good for people who hate heights. No good for people who sit at home all day until their legs turn soft like jello.
Anyhow, it was so damn beautiful. The wall winded over the highest mountains and twisted and turned and then you'd wonder how the hell those people in the ancient times could build such a thing. Only made it to the first fort on the wall. We looked up and saw a stairway leading all the way up to heaven and the thought made me dizzy. Nevertheless, so many people went all the way.
Sometimes, China is so beautiful you just can't take it all in. After seeing beijing I think there's nothing better in this world. The architecture is inspiring. The stories fascinate and the culture is out of this world. Maybe some people don't appreciate it, and if you don't, I think you'll still be awed. Or maybe you'd rather not go.
The down side is that the people are not courteous or sincere or considerate. They spit whenever they want to. Before that they make this wretching noise in their throat (that I learnt how to do) then cough out this overwhelming piece of slime. Haha. Not funny if you're like my mum who covers her ears and runs away at the first sign of spitting.
If my 2nd aunt goes there, she'll just curl up into a ball and die. It's dirty, but eh....I don't mind. She'll just be cursing all the way and the tour guide will just leave her behind.
Wish could show u all the pictures but my this dad insisted that I had to be in all the pictures....so dumb...I look like a phantom. I wanted to just take pics liddat but my parents damn old fashioned. Pissed.
Anyway, muz visit china again. Maybe next time in spring in Xi'An. Hmm....next stop shall be Kyoto!!!!!!
