No more hols. It's official. THIS IS SHIT!!! And I already...had stuff planned...and everything...*breaks down dramatically*. I still can't believe it. They had the NERVE to give us LAST MINUTE notice. Well, phfff, at least I was happy for the remaining few days of my 'HOLS'. And the subject is film language. What shit, I thought I chose animation already. I don't feel like hearing, 'Film language is essential because it applies to animation as well'. NO. Don't give me crap like that. DON'T. *faints*...I'm sad. Devastated. I can't believe class starts on my birthday. And I was hoping to stay at home or something actually...for some 'me' time. And not do anything. Relax. Obviously, my life sucks. For this to happen on my 18th birthday *plops on bed and stares at ceiling for 1 hour*....*comes back to comp*...This is not...fair. Woohoo, go, life. At least my class kinda rocks...know most people...see, at least I have heart enough to actually LIKE something out of this. ARGGHH....moonnsstaaaahhh..!! I think I might be crazy. Or possessed. Hey that's kinda cool =D...
Wow. Hey. Lemme see. I'm on a roll!!! Blogging 3 days in a row. Record, man, record. Phfff.Oh yea, hm. Had fun last sat with old pals...went to eat pepper lunch, watch dancing auditions, watch people at skate park make a fool of themselves..hee, ok. Ah wow, didn't realise how much i missed you guys =] *huggles*Hm, now I'm just stuck with work. I wanna go JAPAN!! Kyoto, Tokyo, Osaka, Hokkaido, anything...!!!! *whimpers* No way am I gonna be stuck in singapore for these duno how many weeks of no-school. Ooo, winter O_o...the last time I experienced winter was in China, when I developed serious rashes from the itchy cotton underlayer clothes. Gross. Meehh. Photoshop is dying on me. I can feel his suffering. He doesn't even open files as immediate as before. He purposely make me wait so long when I make him convert .psd into .jpeg. Maybe it's also cos it's a 600dpi file. Wth, now then tell me it has to be 600dpi. PS was already protesting at 300. So I'm giving him a break for now cos I think he won't work under stress. Slave protesting here. Oooh, my neighbours' rabbits gave birth to 3. Again. And again. They must be 12 days old now...so cute =D They like to tumble all over each other and fall flat on their stomachs and act dead. Hm...I know, I better start on some illustrations, mainly to get the pay =D...But sigh. I'm lazy shit. If I do get the money soon, I duno...I would contemplate about getting a nintendo DS or something. PS3 is way ex...but I really want it =( we'll see. But the main thing I wanna do this hols (if I can consider this a hol) is to go overseas. Meep!! Either japan, or some european country. I have to see the sagrada familia or like, the vatican. ya, so gorgeous. Anyhoo~ I gotta go shit, see ya =D
Shalala~A lot of people say I haven't been blogging for such a loooonnnggg time. Yea. That's me =D So this post is for you. Hmph. Ahaa...what's new in my life? Things are pretty stale now. But I've got stuff to do this hols, so I'm more or less occupied every day. Got a new violin teacher. Eh, I really duno what to say about this guy. I mean, I totally slammed him in the first lesson, I was surprised he even turned up in the 2nd lesson..O_o;; Yeah, I think I was pretty mean to him then. But I've never met with someone that weird and...just...irritating. Hm, and he didn't really stand up for himself when I said all those sick bitchy things to him. I'm not usually like this, see. I'm only like this if you piss me off and do a darn good job at it. Meh, anyways I didn't like it. His 'submissiveness'. Haha, sounds gross =P Jeez, I mean, it's not FUN when you bring someone down and he lets it go without a fight. Where's the challenge in that?? Oookaaaay. I'm officially a sadistic nutcase. I'm done with 2 pics for the 100-pic challenge. Crazy lah. But yea, it acts as my...motivation thing. The 2nd one I did was 'Blood'. Of course. Since I'm a self-proclaimed sadistic nutcase. *Yawn* Blogging is tough work...!! *YAWN*Meh meh. Other than that, I think I'm suffering from lack of motivation in life. Eh, not like I'm gonna jump off a building anytime soon...just don't feel motivated to follow the path I made for myself. Animation. Drawing. Uh...in-betweenings...? Yeah, well, for you retards out there, drawing is not bloody EASY unless you're Da Vinci or Ronald or something...haha. AND. It is a way of life, a hobby, a passion, a talent...And it is definitely not like some boring business or medical or programming crap, ok. Don't treat it or make it sound like it's some childish shit thing people do in their spare time. Wtf, people earn big bucks doing it. Open your damn eyes. Yes, I am rather angry tonight......=D And I need to say some...things. Things that probably no one know. Yeah, WTF I'm practically telling the whole world now. Anyways, my Photoshop has been bailing out on me recently. Maybe its cos I load him with huge ass .PSD files and force him to convert them into .JPEG to send to the...damn...publisher. Yes, my Photoshop is a male because it is stubborn and slow =D...Just kiddin. I'm not sleeping well either. It's ALWAYS beyond 3am and I wake up like, 12 hours+ later unless I need to be somewhere. I swear, I can migrate to Canada and fit in perfectly with their time. It's just that night is so great to me. It's so friggin QUIET. Ah, well, except when my bloody shit neighbour decides its time to take out his electric guitar. Really, I need to catch him when he comes home and beat him to a pulp in the garbage disposal area. Sorry. Ahem. Rather violent imagery attacks my mind at night *GRIN* But hey, I was never hesitant when it came to beating up a guy. Girls I won't touch. Maybe it's cos I...love the challenge? I almost beat up a guy in sec sch, but I had low self-control then. And it was cos he was messing with a friend. Not in a sick way, just an irritating way. Omg...haa, what am I saying....I duno why I'm like this. It can't be cos of my upbringing. Hm.***Beginnings of a very long EMO entry***Lala~ Well, I think I know why. I've been raised to be this really meek, quiet person from birth, who would take shit from anyone without a noise. Didn't help much in the growing-up stage. I never told this to anyone...I remember being like, bullied or something in P5...hm, not exactly bullying, but I guess I'm just a sensitive person. After that one year, everything changed. WTF this is my life story here!! Should I even be posting this.....*shifty eyes*...I think if I've never been through P5, I would have been a very, VERY different person. All throughout my life before P5, I had the bestest of friends and everything. I was comfortable with everyone in class. Yeah, those bitches spoiled everything for me eh. I guess my heart was slowly deciding to steel itself and lash out at anyone who tried to hurt it. I really understand how some people with broken lives turn out the way they are, I understand totally. I just didn't want to get hurt anymore, or taken advantage of because of my kindness. I was used to being stepped all over and used to 'friends' who liked to borrow my stuff freely. I'm not a fucking CD shop. Nope. And I don't like making your shit look pretty for free. I suppose I realised a lot of things too late. So I'm making up for it now. If I was ever mean to you, did or said something that hurt you, I'm...sorry...? Haa, well. I duno how to put it. I know I never meant any of it. I suppose I know all these things because whenever I make someone feel bad, I would go home, and sulk...thinking how much I hurt that person, wonder if they think I'm some sicko. I don't wanna do it. Words and actions come through to me WAY before rationale thoughts. So...uh, YEAH. Don't say things that can hurt people (*is being fucking ironic*)...even if you meant it in good humour. You never know if it might hit a weak spot. Gawds, you duno how many times I've got it good. Don't insult people's parents (i will really punch you hardcore if you dare insult mine. and i wld mean it, biatches), don't fucking laugh at something when it might hurt the other person. Pls, I hope I'm making sense. Btw, this is not meant to be funny.***End of EMO CRAP***btw, everyone is emo. We are only human. Deal with it =DI'm being ironic and evil and weird tonight, buuuuut.....it felt great to get that load off my chest =DDD Okay, now I'm hoping no one will read this post =X...I will show everyone one day that I can be successful...I can make it...and I will spend my life doing what I love best. And...I will earn big bucks =D...but that is only to support the 2 people who kept me breathing these past 18 years, no one else.....now I'm hungry. shit.
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I kinda know what to do for the main pic in our blog already...now just gotta find...inspiration. oOOoO...
On another note, the hols have started, and I gotta finish some sick commission work fast. The publisher must be..kinda pissed at me for being so slack. $6 per pic and some cover pages for assessment books...not bad at all =P I really need to continue. Hm, no motivation...
I should give myself a deadline. A schedule. Yea. Hm, yea. Like hell I would be able to follow it. Hehe.
Ahaa...had violin lesson a moment ago. Well, not exactly...cos we were just talking about stuff all the way...about school and movies and s'pore being a crappy arts hub..
So cool, my teacher crashed at an NTU lecture about 4D and got his brains blown out. Gawds, I wanna go NTU some day. Even though the hours are like shit and the homework is like shit. Must be really tough but...should be darn fun.
On a side note, I'm taking on a challenge from dA...even though I don't have an account there. Phff, yes I'm lame. It's the 100-theme challenge..thing. Basically there are 100 themes given, and you gotta create a pic based solely on that. 100 pics...wow, knowing me, I would probably drop out sooner or later...but it's worth the effort...for improving.
So, I started on the first theme. Introduction.
First thing that came to mind was a scene that has been hanging around in my head for some time. It's just the moment by which my 2 characters first meet each other. Well. Complicated for those who are not...me. LOL.
One is a young general. The other is a 13 year old ninja. Yeah, please don't say it's childish. Haa. So, basically, the general is in a bamboo plantation, and he comes into a clearing where the ninja is practising his supa cool ninja skillz. Kinda. But it's not as retarded as I put it. The general is quite captivated, cos he has never seen a ninja before.
There's alot of backstory to it, like why the hell is he in a bamboo plantation O_o?? Yeah, but the story is copyright to me...if u wanna know, ask me yourself...wahaa like anyone will..
So...that kinda sums up my pic. Ugh, it's a 5 panel comic strip. No dialogue. I feel that it's a beautiful thing to let pictures speak for themselves. Yeah, I sound like a dork or something. Hm, might add some thoughts...cos the page looks real blank in some areas...woo hoo.
Duno why...just feels so good that I finally got the scene out of my head. Wow. Feels DARN good. It actually turned out better than I expected, especially the bamboo xD...I had a bloody insane cool pic of vectored bamboos as referrence. I love bamboo. Bamboo bamboo...even the name sounds cute. Of course, I don't like many things about the comic strip, but that's ok...it's exactly how I pictured it in my head, and that's all that matters sometimes.
So, 1 down, 99 more pics to go..!!! *dances*
