ahh, the only reason i'm here now is to vent a bit. my friends say they come here and all they get is a crummy post from 10 months ago or something, so this is just a lil update on my horrific life. Enjoy.


I'm....thoroughly stressed X___X You think you can understand, you think you can relate, but you're WRONG people!! DD: Unless you come from the same course as me (shhh im not givin out info like that when those SPY DOGS are out sniffing our every move).


Lesseeee......in this month alone, I have..


-2D Advanced animation: one calvin & hobbes animation, 3 very small animes, and uh my lect has forced entasked me to do a small opening for the C&H animation because he's out to murder me like the rest of them i know it that the class will use. (omg i just gave out my course, ahaa) The class is gonna use this....it's not that big a deal, but that puts an idiot like me under alot of stress. We did the filming part today...quite fun, but now im missing 3 firewires and i hope some responsible soul has helped me return them >__<;; *yea im irresponsible so just shoot me already!!*


-extra 3D animation classes weekly: I have no idea why i agreed. hahaaa....ok, so it's not that bad, but i didnt expect this Block to be so painful. Yada yayaa here i go complaining again, I know someone won't like it but ive got the farking right to spit my shit to the worrrllldddd.


-Unknown CDI Project: lect says, we'll have a CDI grp meeting sometime this week. Friends and I: wait for 2 weeks....nothing happens, of course, what were we expecting eh? still pending, but knowin my lect, we're definitely in and he'll make sure we complete it. Shit, this will take up A HELL LOT OF TIME when it starts =__=


- Character Design. Now.....WHERE SHOULD I START......


.....first off, I shall be blunt, narrow-minded, and childish: I HATE THAT LECT. People, we all know who that is cos i bitch about him all day. When his name is mentioned, I go into a bitching spree, sry for having to put up with that~ ^^; LOL.


...well, it's not like I haven't tried understanding the shit he says. I HAVE tried, since last last Block when I suffered such a miserable blow. I was probably too rash...and got pissed with him all too fast (that fathaF*CKER i had every right, too), but now I know...it's not the things he says about our art...it's HOW HE SAYS IT. He demeans the class, and brags like crazy, and his works are farking fugly but im so nice i dont say it in his face, see?


just the other day he was telling the deadpan class..."your drawing skills ah...so WEAK!!" "Your lines are not strong enough" "Use geometric shapes and doodling, dont THINK"....WTFFF..???


maybe some bastards in class understand the shit he says, but whatever, man. He loves contridicting himself. I dont even wanna understand him sometimes. It has taken me alot of ego-bashing to say this but, i learnt stuff from what he said. Wish he couldve said it in a better tone. Gaahh, what a narrow-minded lecturer.....he's so subjective, he even implied it in class today. Ahh, what a fathaf*cking bitch.


Well, enough of that. I've been wanting to spill that for quite some time =D


My day starts from 9am (wake up at 7, shit) and ends at 6pm (reach home 7+, unless we have the 3D night classes, swell). All in all, a very tiring day in school, seated in front of the SAME lightbox for MORE THAN 6 HOURS. Don't even try to comprehend the situation we have here. It's too painful, you'll get nightmares.


Ahh, btw. The school seems to be spending a HELL LOT on HD equipment. Hm. Too much money to spare..?? Then why not take a damn look at the 2D animation studio for starters, instead of glorifying this OVERRATED SHIT CALLED HIGH-DEFINITION. The lightboxes are screwy. The comps are laggy and not up to date. We dont even have ENOUGH of these malfunctioning equipments.


Thanks, now we know we're not poor, just selective.


Haa, it's not like im blaming the equipment for poor works. DONT get me wrong lah. im pissed enough already. No one is on our side. Today proved it.


Pep talks are increasing, too. What's wrong with us..?? What's wrong with ME..??? gawds, I used to be hardworking, now that i think of it, and now im just letting people sweep past me. No farking way, man.


I see the way im lacking of improvement....and it just kills. That is, I feel like im not improving much. NO FARKING TIME, HAR HAR.


Anyways, i hope this bloody long post has made up for my long absence. I hope this explains it.


well, if you wanna succeed in life, i guess all you got in the end is yourself, huh. It's not worth it depending on others when they'll just let you down in the end.


It feels like I wanna cry, but nothing comes out. Maybe it's gotten this bad, i duno. I wanted to colour today, but as usual, there's no time for anything except work work work. If this is what the industry is like......well...gotta find some way to adapt to it.


-END OF EMO-


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`3 October '88
`Singapore
`design student
`future 2d+3d animator XD
`anime/manga, skateboarding, violin
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